Good new, bad news.

Pretty fortunate for those hiphop source blogs with the latest R&B joints. I'm always on top of that shit. If it wasn't for that, I'd have same ringtones for days. (I change my ringtones like I change my undies. [; Heh.) Thank goodness for Treos.. mini-tones are hella convenient.

So just as I had hoped and I'll prolly get alotta "Wtf's".. the infamous Warriors lost by one today. Thanks Harrington for missing that shot. (: But wtf, against a team that's at 6-34? On a good note, Denver won against Minnesota on Saturday. 111-108. That keeps my hopes up for tonight's game against the Lakers. Sorry JE.LA.. it's not like I don't doubt the Lakers.. they AIGHT. Eww, are you listening to the way I'm speaking? I fuckin hate being a basketball junkie, thanks to Paul's stankass. I wanna be girly again.. ): Btw.. Wade's looking good right now. That's where my girly side plays a role.. because I'm obviously sucker for these ball players. Yum..

So my weekend was fun because it was best's and Rholan's birthday weekend! On Friday, Paul picked me up after work, and I chilled with him for the mean-time. Watched the last episode of One Tree Hill's season 2. I got him and the sissys hooked. (: So yeah, chilled then he dropped me off at Nelle's around 9ish for her family party. Saw faces I haven't seen since last year, literally. I'm alive, people! Had to take doubleshots, because these bitches were already drunk.. caught up to em'.. and realized my stomach was empty. So ate some, then chilled some more. Then her whackass neighbors threw a bitchfit and called the cops. Drama here, drama there.. but everyone just played it cool and kept quiet. Around 12, I called it a night since the kids were at my house waiting for me. Came home to Criselle waiting up for me, then we KO'd after an episode of One Tree Hill.. Saturday I wasn't sure if I was gonna come out again because I wasn't feelin all that great, and babysitting was another possibility. But I managed to pick my ass up and come out for MY BEST FRIEND. Mmhmm. Nelle and Lica got me then, we went to Eva and Jay's.. waited til Alyssa got ready, then went to B's pad. Love his fattyass backyard. Waited for parties to get crashed, then traders decided to come, haha. Chilled, then more of the girls came, and we took shots. Henny bottles from left to right. Hookah and brew. No more drinking til mine and Paul's birthday, forreals! I can't even hang anymore. Good girl for good, fack. Took pictures and around 3am I called it a night.. went home and didn't hesitate to knock the fuck out. On Sunday, I rolled outta bed around noon.. cleaned and did some laundry. Hangovers suck. Made a quick stop to Long's to develop pictures and then headed to church. Met up with the otherhalf of my fambam.. The talks in church kept me on the edge of my seat. Dwelled on Father's words.. I needed that after a crazy weekend.

Father's weekly prophecy consisted on the process of baptism and the admission of a new life being pure. He also mentioned how pain is inevitable due to the fact that it's the reason why it takes time to mold into a better person. Usually percieving pain.. we have our negative outlooks about it because nobody likes feeling pain. He portrayed pain in a way I've never viewed it. If it wasn't for pain, we would not realize changes that need to be changed. Pain triggers our senses which make us react to the situation. For example if we got a cut on our hand, and hypothetically we couldn't feel pain, we would just bleed to death. Hunger is another type of pain, because if we never got hungry, we would never eat. It made me realize that we're all out here complaining about pain and why God let's bad things happen, but it's only because he has a plan for each and every one of us. Trust me, it ain't easy being let down. I remember when Oanh and Jay passed away, I would even find myself questioning my faith in Him. Why did God pick them.. it wasn't time for em to leave us, yet. But in reality, that was God's plan.. fortunately and unfortunately. It helps knowing they're in a much better place. We can't complain because it hurts too much, we should be thankful that we're strong enough to endure the pain. Until now, I'm waiting for God's plan to carry out in my life.. And when I can't face the pain, all I gotta do is stand up to it. No matter how bad it hurts, hope for the best, and expect the worst.. but believe that it's happening for a reason. When the burden becomes a heavy load, leave it up to God.

Psalms 16:2 I said to the Lord, "You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing."