Counting down

So so so much has happened since the new year started. Mama's birthday was on the 14th.. So we had dinner at my pad. Cooked by yours truly. (: She loved her new coach bag that she's been eyeing every time we went in there! So I had to get it for her. On the 16th was Anthony's bday event at Abyss. Definitely tired of that place. But Jenny, Crystallina, and I were down to make the most of the free entrance, thanks to Jay as always! Saw Anthony right before he got in. (: Waited for zee boys to get there. It was fun though! Saturday I ran hella errands w/ my mamas. Tita Vi and the fams came from the Une and brought me Super Taqueria. :] After went to my cousin's for awhile. Got ready there.. came back home. Chilled w/ Brian, Mark, and Mike for awhile. Then went to Best's birthday shindig at her pad. I can't believe we're turning 21 this year. I remember when it was just her cotillion. ]: After Swoop and Paris got me & we met up with the other girls at Tay's for his 22nd birthday. Posted for a bit then hit the Une for another party, which was weak. But free shots and beer.. so it was coo! Hahah. So we cut out quick. Went to Jenny's to pick up MGD's and Kristel's car. Went back to Tay's. Chilled, drank, pictures as usual! I love my paparazzi Jenny. She's the best evvvs! Idk what else happened but it was fun. Ruth came through, finally! I missed her. Jenny got me some Jacks. So that fulfilled my munchies! Cut and ko'd once I got home coz it was like 3 in the moooo'nin. Slept all day and hit up 6pm mass w/ my mom. It was kind of tough praying for something that was hard to follow through with at the same time..

Okay. I will probably try to fight the tears while typing this. But I need to write it somewhere. So blahh.. I grew up not being close w/ my dad. And we have our days where we'll just chill and chop it up.. watch basketball together.. or whatever. But the other day.. I snapped on him because he just went too far w/ his unnecessary shit-talking. We haven't talked for the whole week.. and it just sucks because his birthdays coming up on the 23rd. And It's like.. how can I fake being happy on his day. For example, on my Mom's birthday, Kuya Chester told us he's leaving for Iraq or Afghanistan this May.. being his last year in the Marines.. it may be exciting for him knowing all that scrill he'll get when he comes back home. But for us, it's nothing but that same feeling we got when he left for Iraq the first time. It was the hardest thing being away from my best friend, none the less, my brother. And only being able to communicate through letters. Not knowing if he was doing just fine or struggling out there. I just don't want to have to go through that all over again. He's the only one that can save me from my pops on his asshole days. So how do you fake being happy when all this is eating me up inside. Easily. How? Two words.. My family. We've been through so much and I'm more than blessed to have a family that's so strong. I've been bitter towards my dad the past week, but it's the only way he'll grow respect for me. I know we'll get through this, we always do. We just gotta suck it up and make the most of our todays and tomorrows. Thru everything and anything my family has encountered, they still make me the happiest/luckiest ever.

Anyways.. I'm officially a Unitek student, going to school to be an NCMA then LVN then RN. I can't wait to start in less than two weeks. Penny less but enrolled. Tuition was a grip. ): I'll probably move to the Une somewhere in the middle of the 7 months. Une for the weekdays, SJ on the weekends. I'm excited, scared, anxious, nervous.. all of the above, all at the same time. But it's where the $$$ is.. right?